Monday, July 19, 2010

Control and the Lack Thereof

It's always a dilemma - picking the right photo gear for a trip. Striking the right balance between image quality and being a pack mule -- tricky stuff. I've been obsessing over this -- which camera, which lenses, which camera bag. I packed and unpacked 2 camera bags and then went out and bought a THIRD one, and packed and unpacked it.  I've talked about the subject endlessly and it's beginning to drive Patti crazy. Tonight, I realized why I'm such a mess over it.

In 6 days, Delta Airlines is going to transport us exactly halfway across the world, and on arrival I will become functionally illiterate. I had been able to read and write since I was 3 years old. Its something I take for granted. In China, I will be dependent on the hospitality and kindness of strangers for assistance in doing the most basic things that require literacy -- find a taxi, find the bathroom, find our hotel... find a Starbucks.

What does that have to do with camera gear? Well, I'm all balled up over something I can control, which is an outlet for my underlying anxiety over all the unknowns that await us in China -- things that I cannot possibly control. My mind is running absolutely amok.

I guess the only sane thing to do is to let go, trust that we will be OK, and enjoy the adventure.  And I do love a good adventure. ~ Leanne

1 comment:

  1. If you have half as much fun as I had in China, then you will have a very wonderful time. And I was chaperoning sixty High Schoolers.
    Bathrooms - worst I've ever seen, or smelled, usually the latter first. Take TP with you. And have a blast!

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